affirmation: you are lovely, a child of the universe.
mood: frustrated.
gratitude: today i am not feeling too much gratitude, except for my family.
five of my favorite recovery songs:
1} i'm movin on by rascal flatts.
2} the climb by miley cyrus.
3} fighter by christina aguilera.
4} how you live by point of grace.
5} stand in the rain by super chick.
recovery. why do i feel so ambivalent lately? why does this feel so hopeless, a battle that i can never win anyway? what should i do? what is the right choice to get back on the right road? can i get help even though i dont want it right now? recovery where are you? a life without ed? i cant even imagine.
i'm a liar, a filthy, ungrateful liar.
sometimes when i'm out i think to myself...i'd rather be at home bingeing and purging...it sounds so much more appealing to me. but why? i dont understand it. i just want to cry, to let it all out, but i cant, i just cant.
i love food too much and i hate food too much.
i'm so lost.
about me.
- s.b.
- this is my place. my place where i can take a well-deserved break from ed/ana/mia. a place of recovery and and slip-ups and relapse. recovery is not easy and its not perfect, but i deserve it. this is where i will remind myself of that. here i'll rant and rave and self-soothe. a pro-recovery not pro-ed sanctuary.
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