all this talk.

its been awhile since i've blogged because i havent been doing well at all and i've just lost the energy to write anything down...also wanted to make this a positive space for myself...not really happening. i dont even know what to say right now...i dont know how i'm going to do this...i'm so beaten down and lost. i feel like i should just be locked away for good...i have nothing to offer and i cant handle anything...not to sound pathetic, but thats just what i am.

exhaustion.

i've been too tired to post lately.

but i did see the jenni schaefer talk this past weekend at bryn mawr college and it was absolutely amazing! she's like my new hero...such an inspiration. i was crying practically the entire time and then she sang her song it's okay to be happy and i almost started bawling.

i've been hanging in there. got some blood taken today...i'm pretty confident that the results will be fine. on the other hand school is driving me crazy. i'm so glad that there's only three more weeks until spring break...and then i'm not going back next quarter. looking to get a job/volunteer position at this preschool in the city and hopefully will be studying for a few clep exams, applying to new schools, and then hopefully moving to the south! i need some southern sunshine and hospitality.